Friday, May 14, 2010

Invisible Senior

Hey! I’m here, doesn’t anyone see me? No one hears me, yet I am in the middle. I talk, no one listens, no one pays mind, am I invisible? Now I know that I am not being loud or obnoxious. Hmmm, I wonder. The music is on, since no one takes me out to dance, I will dance with myself. Oh, nice slow music, I love dancing slow, oops the music got faster. I can dance salsa, I have not danced in a long time. Wow! My feet do not want to move faster, oops I almost fell, The people must think that I am drunk. But wait they do not see me so why should I care. Everyone is laughing, is it at me or with me? Ok I am exhausted, whew!!!! This never happened before. Let me go drink water ad sit down. Hey how are you young lady? I am ignored again. O well, I think I will walk outside.
Everyone is running out and jumping in the pool, let me run too. Whoa, I can’t run, what is wrong with me? Let me get out of the way before the kids run me over.
Something looks and feels weird here, hmmm, I wonder. OK I will sit down for a while and look at the others. I smile, everyone is smiling. Am I dead or invisible? I have to go to the bathroom, let me go now. I hope the bathroom is empty. Ok, it is empty, as I walk in front of a big mirror, I see an old woman, I walk back to the mirror and I look, wow that lady looks like an older version of me. I fix my hair and the lady in the mirror fixes her hair, is she mimicking me? I look real good, then I realize that the woman in the mirror is me. Oh my God, I gasped. That is me, where has time gone, how did I get old so fast? No wonder I am invisible those younger people want nothing to do with me. There is no use for me any more. I am like an orange when squeezed, no more juice, so I am thrown aside. I will not give up, I am going to continue my life even if I continue to be invisible to many. Seniors like me can get together, have fun ad live life. They will some day go the same route I went through.
Many seniors feel this way, because their families forget that although they are old they are still human and need attention.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Is it coming?

Everything was wonderful, I had my ups and downs in life, but not what I had expected. What a shock. I was told it was coming after me and there was nothing anyone could do. Wow! It is coming to get me, but when. I cannot outrun it, I cannot hide for it will find me. Oh my God! The pain starts I need something to stop the pain. I got it. Oh well, it will go away, it can’t be that bad. Days go by, the pain continues. Let me get my new found friend. The pain does not go away. I need a stronger friend this one will not do. Ahhh! It is stronger. Months go by it has not come for me yet, I wonder what it is waiting for? Oh well it probably will not come. Agh! The pain again, I feel it getting stronger, my friend! Where is my friend? I cannot be without my friend, the pain is getting stronger. I hate the world, I hate everyone. No one understands that I need my friend, the pain does not go away, and it does not come for me. Ahhh! Sigh. I found a stronger and more powerful friend. I cannot feel the pain. My boyfriend is still with me, my family loves me, and I have my strong friend with me.
Years pass by, decades, and it has not come for me, I guess it is not coming, I would be happier if the pain went away. Everyone is leaving me, my boyfriend broke up with me, my family leaves me alone. My friend keeps me painless, but I need my family and my friends. Ohhh, the pain is getting stronger, I need my friend but it is too weak, why can’t I find a stronger friend? I feel so lonely, no one wants to be with me, but I cannot blame anyone. It has not come for me, I keep waiting but it does not come will it ever come? Did it forget about me? I know it will come for me one day, but when? I do not want to wait anymore, I want it to hurry up and get me. I do not want to feel this pain anymore. My friend is too weak it cannot keep the pain asleep.
Yes, readers it will come, but no one knows, she was told it was coming for her, everyone got tired of waiting, but does anyone know when death comes?